Tuesday, November 23, 2004
Depression And The Holidays. Happy Turkey Day
Dunno why I am so depressed lately, other than my underlying depression, the stress, the holidays, my injured back, Rudy's barely controlled symptoms after his heart surgery... And then of course we are in The Holiday Season. So there we go. No reason at all for depression!
Tonight it's very much worse, tho. Not sure why. It's happened like this before, however- things were mostly okay during the day, but suddenly things went mentally downhill as the afternoon went by. Strangely, and horribly, enough, I think it may actually be "dark related". The sun starts to go down and my mood goes with it. Which bugs me because I like darkness and the night. I am a mole, a vampire, a bat. I am nocturnal. And yet... my depression seems to get worse when the sun goes away.
Drat.
We are packing tonight to go to Rudy's sister's place for Thanksgiving. A good 200 mile drive. Down past Olympia, Washington, our state capital. No stopping anywhere, a straight drive, because we have to get there FAST. Rudy gets car sick when traveling, and his chest hurts worse in "car seat position" because a car seat ain't nothing like a real chair. Fact is, I am writing this offline, then going to "copy&paste" when I use my (shudder) AOL connection to go online.
I have been yelling at Robbie tonite for no real reason, other than my mood is below 'dark' and nearing 'suicidal'.
Not that y'all want to hear about my problems. Y'all all just want me to write more stories about women being eaten alive by various critters. Sorta like I advertise the blog for. And my site.
I hate myself.
But I love all you out there, I rilly rilly do! Give me a smile, c'mon, kissy kissy! Kissy kissy! There ya go! There ya go!
Anne
Anne2Snakie's Snake Swallowings Site
The Girl Flesh Forum
My Hopefully Spam Proof Email Address:
anne2snakie AT yahoo DOT com
I think you can figure out how to type that into the TO: line : )
Tonight it's very much worse, tho. Not sure why. It's happened like this before, however- things were mostly okay during the day, but suddenly things went mentally downhill as the afternoon went by. Strangely, and horribly, enough, I think it may actually be "dark related". The sun starts to go down and my mood goes with it. Which bugs me because I like darkness and the night. I am a mole, a vampire, a bat. I am nocturnal. And yet... my depression seems to get worse when the sun goes away.
Drat.
We are packing tonight to go to Rudy's sister's place for Thanksgiving. A good 200 mile drive. Down past Olympia, Washington, our state capital. No stopping anywhere, a straight drive, because we have to get there FAST. Rudy gets car sick when traveling, and his chest hurts worse in "car seat position" because a car seat ain't nothing like a real chair. Fact is, I am writing this offline, then going to "copy&paste" when I use my (shudder) AOL connection to go online.
I have been yelling at Robbie tonite for no real reason, other than my mood is below 'dark' and nearing 'suicidal'.
Not that y'all want to hear about my problems. Y'all all just want me to write more stories about women being eaten alive by various critters. Sorta like I advertise the blog for. And my site.
I hate myself.
But I love all you out there, I rilly rilly do! Give me a smile, c'mon, kissy kissy! Kissy kissy! There ya go! There ya go!
Anne
Anne2Snakie's Snake Swallowings Site
The Girl Flesh Forum
My Hopefully Spam Proof Email Address:
anne2snakie AT yahoo DOT com
I think you can figure out how to type that into the TO: line : )
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