Anne2Snakie

Or stop being so fricking lazy about it. But then, life has still been pritty bad, tho things are mellowing out. The bankruptcy is done (tho we still have to surrender our stuff); Rudy is doing very well right now- his heart failure is being handled medically and quite well at the time being; my physical health is pritty good except that my back is getting WORSE and I walk with a cane now...

But my depression is still horrible. I take 450 mgs of Wellbutrin daily and 225 mgz of Effexor daily and I STILL am depressed. The other day I was about to start cutting myself again with a razor blade, but Rudy walked into the bathroom JUST in time (I hid the razor, but told him about what I was doing later).

And I have found it SO hard to write right now. Not just the time thing- watching three kids is EXHAUSTING, especially when your back doesn't rilly hold up to the activity. When I hit the end of the night and I have like 3 free hours, I am so tired I can't write. So I am somewhat backlogged on request stories, stories of my own, and maintaining my site. Fuck.

Let me repeat that for those of you in the studio audience who missed that the first time around. Fuck.

Take care and be well!! Baraka Bashad.

Anne

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