Sunday, April 09, 2006
Well, In A Way I "Graduated"
Mostly it was for curiosity, last night. I finally did tear apart oneof Rudy's plastic "shave-n-toss" razors, and cut 2 parallel lines into my upper shoulder (parallel to the ground, not parallel to the upright stance of the standing human body). One about an inch long, the other about half-an-inch. They bled, and it hurt to cut myself, but not as much as I remembered/anticipated. I wanted to make sure they were cuts and not scratches, because scratches don't count when you cut yourself.
So this morning I was looking at the two cuts on my shoulder and thot to myself, "I need to make sure they are not just scratches, 'cause scratches don't count. Anyone can scratch themselves. So i took the razor (I clean the blade with a mixture of alcohol/witch hazel) and cut myself again, below the other 2 cuts, almost an inch in length. This time I made SURE it wasn't jst a scratch- it gaped open when I bent in to look. Not horribly deep or anything- just making sure I had cut entirely through the skin layer.
So now I have 3 cuts on my shoulder/upper "upper arm", right where rank patches would go if you were in the military. Not terribly deep- I am trying to CUT myself, not mutilate/maim myself. Just through all the skin layers and into the connective tissue below. Not very painful either, and I have a very LOW pain tolerance. ALmost felt/feels good. Bleeding nicely- I like blood. Seems I have a blood fetish as well as a urine fetish and a semen fetish. Maybe it's all part of a "human fluid" fetish, I dunno.
Don't give up on me everyone, especialy Wandersmann and Nightmart (who hasn't emailed me back yet :P ). I am not on a terrible "mutilate myself and become a New York sociaety dropout covered in tattoos, scars, and nursing an HIV/STD while just waiting to die.
This is more of a- a- oh damit, what's the word. Punishment thing? Self-loathing expression? Dunno. Not permanent, not to worry.
Please.
Anne
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So this morning I was looking at the two cuts on my shoulder and thot to myself, "I need to make sure they are not just scratches, 'cause scratches don't count. Anyone can scratch themselves. So i took the razor (I clean the blade with a mixture of alcohol/witch hazel) and cut myself again, below the other 2 cuts, almost an inch in length. This time I made SURE it wasn't jst a scratch- it gaped open when I bent in to look. Not horribly deep or anything- just making sure I had cut entirely through the skin layer.
So now I have 3 cuts on my shoulder/upper "upper arm", right where rank patches would go if you were in the military. Not terribly deep- I am trying to CUT myself, not mutilate/maim myself. Just through all the skin layers and into the connective tissue below. Not very painful either, and I have a very LOW pain tolerance. ALmost felt/feels good. Bleeding nicely- I like blood. Seems I have a blood fetish as well as a urine fetish and a semen fetish. Maybe it's all part of a "human fluid" fetish, I dunno.
Don't give up on me everyone, especialy Wandersmann and Nightmart (who hasn't emailed me back yet :P ). I am not on a terrible "mutilate myself and become a New York sociaety dropout covered in tattoos, scars, and nursing an HIV/STD while just waiting to die.
This is more of a- a- oh damit, what's the word. Punishment thing? Self-loathing expression? Dunno. Not permanent, not to worry.
Please.
Anne
Anne2Snakie's Snake Swallowings Site
The Girl Flesh Forum
My Hopefully Spam Proof Email Address:
anne2snakie AT yahoo DOT com
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