Monday, January 19, 2004
Today Was A Very Sad Day
My husband put his old, sad cat to sleep today. Well, he took it to the vet and they did it. The cat was very old, very thin. Lots and lots of physical problems and even mental problems- had the cat equivalent of dementia and confusion. It was a great cat, and I had come to love it myself in the ime we have been dating and married.
Rudy's been dealing with it like a man, in that STUPID "I'm not going to cry way" you MEN do, walking around with red eyes and being mopy but not giving in and CRYING like I've been doing on and off all day.
Sigh.
Anne
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Rudy's been dealing with it like a man, in that STUPID "I'm not going to cry way" you MEN do, walking around with red eyes and being mopy but not giving in and CRYING like I've been doing on and off all day.
Sigh.
Anne
Anne2Snakie's Snake Swallowings Site
The Girl Flesh Forum
Sunday, January 18, 2004
This time it's All About The Benjamins
Well, not rilly. Just kidding. I do want to see that movie one day, tho.
Anyway, just wanted to spend a moment ranting about this and that. I haven't been able to write much because of taking care of the kids and my husband and other great things : ) but I have been slowly working on chapter 3 of my EPIC mini-novel : ). Hopefully I'll get it finished soon.
And another thing I've been doing which has kept me away from the keyboard is reading. Easier to read with the baby either sleeping or being insane than to sit at the keyboard. I've been reading book one of the GORMENGHAST trilogy. If you haven't read this trilogy, get to your bookstore and look for it. Amazing. Thoroughly. Gothicer than Gothic : )
Gormenghast is a castle. The castle is ancient, decrepit, rotting and yet very much alive. The people are trapped in thoroughly eccentric lives. And everything they do is wrapped in stultifying, horrible ritual.
It's great : )
Take care.
Anne
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Anyway, just wanted to spend a moment ranting about this and that. I haven't been able to write much because of taking care of the kids and my husband and other great things : ) but I have been slowly working on chapter 3 of my EPIC mini-novel : ). Hopefully I'll get it finished soon.
And another thing I've been doing which has kept me away from the keyboard is reading. Easier to read with the baby either sleeping or being insane than to sit at the keyboard. I've been reading book one of the GORMENGHAST trilogy. If you haven't read this trilogy, get to your bookstore and look for it. Amazing. Thoroughly. Gothicer than Gothic : )
Gormenghast is a castle. The castle is ancient, decrepit, rotting and yet very much alive. The people are trapped in thoroughly eccentric lives. And everything they do is wrapped in stultifying, horrible ritual.
It's great : )
Take care.
Anne
Anne2Snakie's Snake Swallowings Site
The Girl Flesh Forum
Monday, January 12, 2004
Everyone Has Their Own Isssues And Problems
But this is MY blog, about my life and my fetish, so it's my turn to whine a bit more.
I have mental issues, and some of you may have already figured that out : ) I suffer from depression, bi-polar disorder, and incomplete obsessive-compulsive disorder, and some mild paranoia. Nice to meet you too : ) All of these things are controlled, to some degree, through medications. The depression and bi-polar are pritty well controlled although some of my cycles can get bad- the "mega-cycles" when i get WAY depressed, or WAY too hyped up. The other aspects are very controlled by medications.
Lately, some of the medications I am now taking for chronic pain were making themselves shown. I have spent the entire day today in a very bad headspace. Super depressed. My entire body felt unclean. It was not anywhere that any of you reading this, all one or two of you, would want to be. Very bad. Very bad.
And I thought I would share this with the world in my blog.
Anne
Anne2Snakie's Snake Swallowings Site
The Girl Flesh Forum
I have mental issues, and some of you may have already figured that out : ) I suffer from depression, bi-polar disorder, and incomplete obsessive-compulsive disorder, and some mild paranoia. Nice to meet you too : ) All of these things are controlled, to some degree, through medications. The depression and bi-polar are pritty well controlled although some of my cycles can get bad- the "mega-cycles" when i get WAY depressed, or WAY too hyped up. The other aspects are very controlled by medications.
Lately, some of the medications I am now taking for chronic pain were making themselves shown. I have spent the entire day today in a very bad headspace. Super depressed. My entire body felt unclean. It was not anywhere that any of you reading this, all one or two of you, would want to be. Very bad. Very bad.
And I thought I would share this with the world in my blog.
Anne
Anne2Snakie's Snake Swallowings Site
The Girl Flesh Forum
Saturday, January 10, 2004
I Am Trying Not To Neglect My Family
But I am certainly spedning a lot of time updating this blog!! And how about that. Anyway, the latest of the boring news.
My step-father had given me two old computers, and I was trying to fix them up so that my son could use one. Well, the one that he was using suddenly died for no good reason, so it's a hunk of junk. Then my step-father gave me another, so my son now has a computer. But I was using the other one as a Windows 98 box, because the machine I use now has to be Windows XP (my video card and sound card conflict in win98 but not winxp). So all of a sudden I try to fire up the win98 box yesterday, and now IT has died!
So now I have great games that will only run in win98 but every win98 box i get keep dying. Don't know what the hell is going on. Oh well. The plan is now that when we get our tax return check, I should get a new computer and I can turn this OLD computer into the win98 box and get the new one as the winxp box.
Right. I'll keep you informed on THAT.
Anne
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The Girl Flesh Forum
My step-father had given me two old computers, and I was trying to fix them up so that my son could use one. Well, the one that he was using suddenly died for no good reason, so it's a hunk of junk. Then my step-father gave me another, so my son now has a computer. But I was using the other one as a Windows 98 box, because the machine I use now has to be Windows XP (my video card and sound card conflict in win98 but not winxp). So all of a sudden I try to fire up the win98 box yesterday, and now IT has died!
So now I have great games that will only run in win98 but every win98 box i get keep dying. Don't know what the hell is going on. Oh well. The plan is now that when we get our tax return check, I should get a new computer and I can turn this OLD computer into the win98 box and get the new one as the winxp box.
Right. I'll keep you informed on THAT.
Anne
Anne2Snakie's Snake Swallowings Site
The Girl Flesh Forum
Thursday, January 08, 2004
The Life Of Mama Snake
Wow, lots of things going on my life.
First some of the good: back in November, a hamster we had bought our son had gotten loose in his room. We spent the next few weeks actively searching for the hamster. Then we spent another few weeks off and on searching for the hamster, looking for the body. Then we gave up on the hamster, thinking we would find the dried out fuzzy corpse when it was summer time. Then, last week, when I was walking down the stairs, I happened to look downward and there, sitting on his hind legs and looking somewhat grey from all the dust in his fur, was the hamster! I quickly captured the beast (even with a badly hurt back and being so pregnant, I am STILL the Lord of Hamsters : ) and now he is back in his cage where he belongs!
The bad: I had another steroid epidural because of my back injury and it hurts a lot. I hate these things, but they are for the best- we are working through our options to try and fix me up. Each step we take this way gets me closer to, if not being "fixed", at least to a level where I can live my life and not have it be dominated by pain. Pain sucks, unless you are masochistic, in which it is the closest thing to heaven. But I am not a masochist, I hate pain.
As such, I haven't actually been writing for the past week, I've been dealing with life and pain and issues. So there we go. I hope to write more soon and all, but stick with me- for those of you who know me, you know I have made it through worse times! For those of you who don't, well, I have made it through worse times! : )
Take care all.
Anne
Anne2Snakie's Snake Swallowings Site
The Girl Flesh Forum
First some of the good: back in November, a hamster we had bought our son had gotten loose in his room. We spent the next few weeks actively searching for the hamster. Then we spent another few weeks off and on searching for the hamster, looking for the body. Then we gave up on the hamster, thinking we would find the dried out fuzzy corpse when it was summer time. Then, last week, when I was walking down the stairs, I happened to look downward and there, sitting on his hind legs and looking somewhat grey from all the dust in his fur, was the hamster! I quickly captured the beast (even with a badly hurt back and being so pregnant, I am STILL the Lord of Hamsters : ) and now he is back in his cage where he belongs!
The bad: I had another steroid epidural because of my back injury and it hurts a lot. I hate these things, but they are for the best- we are working through our options to try and fix me up. Each step we take this way gets me closer to, if not being "fixed", at least to a level where I can live my life and not have it be dominated by pain. Pain sucks, unless you are masochistic, in which it is the closest thing to heaven. But I am not a masochist, I hate pain.
As such, I haven't actually been writing for the past week, I've been dealing with life and pain and issues. So there we go. I hope to write more soon and all, but stick with me- for those of you who know me, you know I have made it through worse times! For those of you who don't, well, I have made it through worse times! : )
Take care all.
Anne
Anne2Snakie's Snake Swallowings Site
The Girl Flesh Forum
