Wednesday, June 30, 2004
Pain and Fear At Home
We almost had to send Rudy to the hospital AGAIN the other day. He's getting vancomycin at home via PICC line, and it was building to toxic levels and causing kidney failure. So he was throwing up and unable to do anything. We're holding the vanco in the hopes that as his levels fall, his kidney function will be restored. It Never Fucking Ends.
On MY side of the day, I had my back procedure done today- Radio Frequency Rhizotomy. They BURNED my sensory nerves For Science today. Oy. Supposed to hurt for the next few days, get better for a few days, then peak and get VERY bad at the 7 to 10 day range. It should take about a month and a half before my body settles down and we see the full results, pain relief wise, from the procedure. But if things go well, I should be experiencing about a 50% pain reduction in my chronic pain.
That's cool.
So it'll still be a few before I get back totally into the swing of things and get some stories written. Please forgive me. These stories will occur.
Anne
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On MY side of the day, I had my back procedure done today- Radio Frequency Rhizotomy. They BURNED my sensory nerves For Science today. Oy. Supposed to hurt for the next few days, get better for a few days, then peak and get VERY bad at the 7 to 10 day range. It should take about a month and a half before my body settles down and we see the full results, pain relief wise, from the procedure. But if things go well, I should be experiencing about a 50% pain reduction in my chronic pain.
That's cool.
So it'll still be a few before I get back totally into the swing of things and get some stories written. Please forgive me. These stories will occur.
Anne
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Thursday, June 24, 2004
The Snake Was Fat And Sassy
with her in it's tummy. She was still struggling weakly inside him, and you could see the movements from the outside. She was just a woman shaped bulge in the body of the snake, fighting to stay alive as it DIGESTED HER ALIVE...
Things are getting better. Rudy is still massively depressed, and I'm afraid he's so depressed he doesn't love me any more. But this is probably my OWN depression and paranoias that makes me feel this way. But Rudy is taking his anti-depressants, so there we go.
Anyway, now that things are rilly settling down I should be writing like normal again.
AND updating my blasted site!! : )
Anne
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Things are getting better. Rudy is still massively depressed, and I'm afraid he's so depressed he doesn't love me any more. But this is probably my OWN depression and paranoias that makes me feel this way. But Rudy is taking his anti-depressants, so there we go.
Anyway, now that things are rilly settling down I should be writing like normal again.
AND updating my blasted site!! : )
Anne
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Wednesday, June 16, 2004
The Counter Has Moved Up Here
((The Counter, she WAS here. Now, you see only the stain of blood in the dirt, and the trail leading to the bushes where the wounded Counter was dragged to have TERRIBLE things done to her, then her lifeless body was buried in a shallow grave where the coyotes dug her up))
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She Was Trying To Survive, But The Snake Was Very Hungry
The muscular contractions of the snake's throat was driving her deeper into the body of the snake. From the outside, her body in the snake was just a very tight woman shaped bulge. She was able to breathe, but the contractions were tight and made it hard, and the air pockets around her were getting stale. She could feel the sphincter of the snake's stomach around her legs, inching it's way toward her hips and she knew that very soon she would be DIGESTED ALIVE...
Rudy is home. That's a good thing. He's been home from the hospital since last Friday. He's on antibiotics for the next six weeks, IV. The IV things are weird- things like softballs that plug into your IV line in your arm. The medicine gets squeezed out of the bulb and into your arm. Odd but neat. You can travel and drive and everything as you get your IV meds.
He's dealing with his depression issues, which are normal after this kind of surgery. He's VERY depressed, and we're trying to get his antidepressant from the pharmacy but the insurance bastards are, well, bastards...
I tell people (because you can see his scar when he's wearing normal shirts with a male V top) that he's a survivor of an axe murderer- hacked his chest open with an axe but he survived. *I* think it's funny, and you need a sense of humor about this, and Rudy just tolerates my sense of humor as he always does :)
Soon I shall start writing again, I think. We're having horrible money problems, and health issues (I myself am having an outpatient back surgery procedure later this month) but we are surviving. We ALMOST made it to disneyland- we had tickets reserved and everything for later next month, but had to cancel and lost $200 non-refundable when.
Sometimes we fuck OURSELVES financially :)
Ah well. Anyway. Just wanted to fill all 2 or 3 of you out there that read this what was happening in my life and why I haven't written anything yet. I think I shoiuld update my web site intro page. Good idea, eh? :)
Anne
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Rudy is home. That's a good thing. He's been home from the hospital since last Friday. He's on antibiotics for the next six weeks, IV. The IV things are weird- things like softballs that plug into your IV line in your arm. The medicine gets squeezed out of the bulb and into your arm. Odd but neat. You can travel and drive and everything as you get your IV meds.
He's dealing with his depression issues, which are normal after this kind of surgery. He's VERY depressed, and we're trying to get his antidepressant from the pharmacy but the insurance bastards are, well, bastards...
I tell people (because you can see his scar when he's wearing normal shirts with a male V top) that he's a survivor of an axe murderer- hacked his chest open with an axe but he survived. *I* think it's funny, and you need a sense of humor about this, and Rudy just tolerates my sense of humor as he always does :)
Soon I shall start writing again, I think. We're having horrible money problems, and health issues (I myself am having an outpatient back surgery procedure later this month) but we are surviving. We ALMOST made it to disneyland- we had tickets reserved and everything for later next month, but had to cancel and lost $200 non-refundable when.
Sometimes we fuck OURSELVES financially :)
Ah well. Anyway. Just wanted to fill all 2 or 3 of you out there that read this what was happening in my life and why I haven't written anything yet. I think I shoiuld update my web site intro page. Good idea, eh? :)
Anne
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Monday, June 07, 2004
Death and Violence and Murder. All the good stuff.
Criminy. Where to start? Things are horrible, and yet getting horribler, and kinda good.
Turns out Rudy has a bad infection. Gram positive (which is the best kind of infection to have if you have to have an infection), AND a gram negative infection (which is the kind of infection you DON'T want to have). Sigh. They did an echocardiogram today to see if the infection is in his heart valves... And TOMORROW they are going to do a transesophogeal echocardiogram to get a better look at his heart. This is where they stuff a tube down his throat to look at his heart.
So they pulled out his PICC line and it was pussy- laugh- as in having PUS in it, not a vagina : ) Then they put in a new one. a picc line is a catheter that runs from where the put it in- generally at the elbow, and it snakes through the vein and then ends directly in the heart!! How about that!
So Rudy is on a ton of antibiotics right now, AND to add to the joy, he camr up with a POSITIVE result when they checked for hepatitus C. FUCK. The only time he got blood products BEFORE he got into the hospital THIS time was when he got platelets down in Seattle.
Most likely a false positive. MOST likely. They are testing again tomorrow.
On the other hand, Rudy is feeling a LOT better. Has an appetite now, exercises (walks) a little. He's getting better. After all, he woiuld be DEAD right now if he hadn't had the heart valve replacements. So that's a plus right there!
Man.
Anyways, more later as things occur. And I WILL be writing more as time goes by. I PROMISE!!
Anne
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Turns out Rudy has a bad infection. Gram positive (which is the best kind of infection to have if you have to have an infection), AND a gram negative infection (which is the kind of infection you DON'T want to have). Sigh. They did an echocardiogram today to see if the infection is in his heart valves... And TOMORROW they are going to do a transesophogeal echocardiogram to get a better look at his heart. This is where they stuff a tube down his throat to look at his heart.
So they pulled out his PICC line and it was pussy- laugh- as in having PUS in it, not a vagina : ) Then they put in a new one. a picc line is a catheter that runs from where the put it in- generally at the elbow, and it snakes through the vein and then ends directly in the heart!! How about that!
So Rudy is on a ton of antibiotics right now, AND to add to the joy, he camr up with a POSITIVE result when they checked for hepatitus C. FUCK. The only time he got blood products BEFORE he got into the hospital THIS time was when he got platelets down in Seattle.
Most likely a false positive. MOST likely. They are testing again tomorrow.
On the other hand, Rudy is feeling a LOT better. Has an appetite now, exercises (walks) a little. He's getting better. After all, he woiuld be DEAD right now if he hadn't had the heart valve replacements. So that's a plus right there!
Man.
Anyways, more later as things occur. And I WILL be writing more as time goes by. I PROMISE!!
Anne
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Friday, June 04, 2004
Things Are Bad But Getting Better
Rudy is still in the hospital, should be until maybe this Sunday or so. He's just not as strong (after the surgery) as he thought he was. And right now his heartbeat is strange, kind of uncontrolled and erratic. He's having tachycardia and he's on a lot of meds for that right now. As well as the fact that bhis blood isn't thinning out the way it should be doing. Andit HAS to do it and JUST RIGHT or his blood will clot and he'll have a stroke. That's the hazards of having a heart valve replaced, and he had two. Have to keep the blood thin so it doesn't clot in the mechanical valves.
We almost had a trip to Disneyland planned as a vacation and present for Rudy and I after the Hell we have been through. But of course, in the end God beat us down and took the trip from us as WELL as our losing $200 in non-refundable reservations we ended up not being able to use.
Why God doesn't kill us right now instead of prolonging the agony, I don't know.
On the other hand, I am still sober, tho I have been a terrible person and have been abusing Rudy's pain meds while he's been in the hospital. I am a terrible, terrible person. These oxycodone tabs come in 5 milligram tablets, and he had 90 when he got out of the hospital. I have taken, over the past week, about 20 of them. Not in one go, just over the past week. Every day, about 4 or 5 tabs.
So in a way, I HAVEN'T remained sober, have I? But then, alcohol is my drug of choice- while this has been a relief of sorts, it's not something I'm addicted to, nor plan on doing so. So don't worry about me. I'm fucked up, but THIS isn't going to be my next addiction.
At least, I fucking HOPE not.
On the technology front, I have an old computer my parents gave me. It's like a 300 mghz machine, 192 megs ram, 6 gig hard drive. Win98. I LOVE it. It has the old AT keyboard, which is a plug that's about the size of a quarter whereas modern keyboards have a plug about the diameter of a dime. It even uses a SERIAL mouse- no plug ins or USB for this puppy. I don't think they've made serial mice for average consumer use for YEARS.
Why do I love this old thing? Because I can play some old games that winxp HATES. The old Elder Scrolls games- ARENA and DAGGERFALL and BATTLESPIRE and the like. Play like dreams. And the windows Might and Magic games, 6 through 8. Wowsers : )
Actually, I'm driving Rudy crazy, even before all this started, in that I am collecting old computers now. I have 2 absolutely broken computers in the kids room, they don't work worth at ALL. out here I have this beast I am composing on, the old computer I play the old games on, and ANOTHER currently non-working machine I plan on converting to a FASTER win98 machine (to play Morrowind on : ) It just needs a video card, then (I can plug it's guts back in. Oh, and an audio card.
THEN we have the laptop that rudy boughtfor his schoolwork that he never needed so now it's MINE : ) 2 gig winxp machine. AND there's the laptop my parents gave me- 64 megs 500 mghz 20 gig hard drive winME machine. It's a beast, temperamental since my mother spilled a glass of wine into the keyboard. How about that : )
AND I have another computer that Rudy doesn't know about yet in the living room that I got from my parents- it's old and HUGE. It's one of those computers that is flat, like a footstool, sorta. Not a tower. A PACKARD BELL. a 486! 2 gig hard drive- don't know the mghz speed yet. And s-l-o-w... it boots into win95, and takes almost TEN MINUTES from flicking the HUGE power switch on the side to usable state. Old AT keyboard, and I can't find a place to even plug in a serial mouse!!
I have too many computers : ) AND it turns out that my mother wants to get rid of some of the computers that my father has been collecting... muHAHAHAHAHA : )
Take care! Hope to start writing stories again soon!!
Anne
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We almost had a trip to Disneyland planned as a vacation and present for Rudy and I after the Hell we have been through. But of course, in the end God beat us down and took the trip from us as WELL as our losing $200 in non-refundable reservations we ended up not being able to use.
Why God doesn't kill us right now instead of prolonging the agony, I don't know.
On the other hand, I am still sober, tho I have been a terrible person and have been abusing Rudy's pain meds while he's been in the hospital. I am a terrible, terrible person. These oxycodone tabs come in 5 milligram tablets, and he had 90 when he got out of the hospital. I have taken, over the past week, about 20 of them. Not in one go, just over the past week. Every day, about 4 or 5 tabs.
So in a way, I HAVEN'T remained sober, have I? But then, alcohol is my drug of choice- while this has been a relief of sorts, it's not something I'm addicted to, nor plan on doing so. So don't worry about me. I'm fucked up, but THIS isn't going to be my next addiction.
At least, I fucking HOPE not.
On the technology front, I have an old computer my parents gave me. It's like a 300 mghz machine, 192 megs ram, 6 gig hard drive. Win98. I LOVE it. It has the old AT keyboard, which is a plug that's about the size of a quarter whereas modern keyboards have a plug about the diameter of a dime. It even uses a SERIAL mouse- no plug ins or USB for this puppy. I don't think they've made serial mice for average consumer use for YEARS.
Why do I love this old thing? Because I can play some old games that winxp HATES. The old Elder Scrolls games- ARENA and DAGGERFALL and BATTLESPIRE and the like. Play like dreams. And the windows Might and Magic games, 6 through 8. Wowsers : )
Actually, I'm driving Rudy crazy, even before all this started, in that I am collecting old computers now. I have 2 absolutely broken computers in the kids room, they don't work worth at ALL. out here I have this beast I am composing on, the old computer I play the old games on, and ANOTHER currently non-working machine I plan on converting to a FASTER win98 machine (to play Morrowind on : ) It just needs a video card, then (I can plug it's guts back in. Oh, and an audio card.
THEN we have the laptop that rudy boughtfor his schoolwork that he never needed so now it's MINE : ) 2 gig winxp machine. AND there's the laptop my parents gave me- 64 megs 500 mghz 20 gig hard drive winME machine. It's a beast, temperamental since my mother spilled a glass of wine into the keyboard. How about that : )
AND I have another computer that Rudy doesn't know about yet in the living room that I got from my parents- it's old and HUGE. It's one of those computers that is flat, like a footstool, sorta. Not a tower. A PACKARD BELL. a 486! 2 gig hard drive- don't know the mghz speed yet. And s-l-o-w... it boots into win95, and takes almost TEN MINUTES from flicking the HUGE power switch on the side to usable state. Old AT keyboard, and I can't find a place to even plug in a serial mouse!!
I have too many computers : ) AND it turns out that my mother wants to get rid of some of the computers that my father has been collecting... muHAHAHAHAHA : )
Take care! Hope to start writing stories again soon!!
Anne
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